Pilot
Hello. Today I had suicidal thoughts. Its not very common for me, at least no serious thoughts about it until today. Am I depressed? mentally ill? I wish to believe im not. And for the most of it, i am sure that im not. i think. Most of the time I can control my emotions, Im one to clap back, snap out of something and try to cheer myself up and move on. And people tell me those who are depressed dont have that ability and that luxury to pull themselves out of that depressed state. But what led me to make this blog? what led me to writing again. knowing that im a terrible one, and im ought to regret it in the near future when i read this. but I need someone to listen. to listen to my problems, to understand what im going through and convince me things will be okay. My parents are hopeless, the 21 years ive lived ive never had a heart to heart conversation with them. or even a genuine conversation at that. my siblings? no. never. they would never understand, as much as i wish they would ...